i`ve been thinking way too much lately. too much that it`s driving me insane but im hanging in there. im desperate to write & for now i`ll give up my copy cat theory & the whole "don`t jock what you can`t rock" bullshit. [ don`t put shit online if you don`t want people to steal it bkoz chances are they`ll find a way to steal it ] so here`s a small short story // summary version of what i`ll later write in detail as a short story or maybe more. it`s not one of my best but i reserve my best for the publication companies so i can make money off it ;]*
she woke up with a start. the seventh vision in a row. each time she would get comfortable in her bed, close her eyes, & start to fall asleep she would see "his" face. & no matter what the setting, he would be watching her &/or smiling at her.
she sat up in bed & wondered why she was continuously dreaming about "him." it wasn`t as if he existed anymore.
no. not anymore.
he was gone to her now. a million miles away. a star among many stars. too far for her reach. no matter how hard she would reach out for his warmth he was gone.
gone.
tears pooled in her eyes & spilled unto her cheeks but she didn`t wail or whimper or cover her face to sob. she just sat there with a blank face while her tears cascaded down her cheeks to fall in droplets on her comforter. she hugged herself & rubbed her arms. she felt cold inside & out. she closed her eyes & didn`t know what to wish for anymore.
wishes. she had so many of them. she wanted to see "his" face again smiling down at her with so much love in "his" eyes. she wanted to feel "his" arms around her "his" warmth engulfing her. she wanted to feel "his" kiss so sweet & tender. but to wish all that made the pain come back to remind her that "he" was gone from her reach & it made her hurt inside. to wish for it to go away would mean she would no longer have those memories. she didn`t want that.
she wanted to go back in time.
if she could go back to that time she could change her future.
but was her future so bland without "him"?
or was it really worth it to change everything?
that`s when her crying suddenly changed. peals of wailing tore away from her until she was sure she`d wake the neighbors. no matter how much she tried to stop herself she couldn`t. tears flowed from her eyes like a river. nonstop they came one after the other until her hands were soaked with them. she tried to shut her eyes to keep the tears from falling but they came anyway & "his" face came to her in clarity.
she woke up with a start. another vision? her alarm clock went off. 6:00am. she got out of bed & headed for the bathroom then stopped. why was she getting up so early for? she racked her brain for something but nothing came to mind. she went back to bed & tried to go back to sleep but she couldn`t. something was wrong.
what was it?
at 6:30am the house phone went off. she frowned & looked around the room. her house phone`s ringer didn`t sound like that...
that`s when she really looked around her room. her old room. her parents` house...?
no. it couldn`t be.
"hello?"
"are you ready yet? it`s 6:30. you`ll be late for school."
SCH00L?!
..to be continued.. | 
